[ Perfect Black ]

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2009-11-10T19:21:12Z

<< Drag me down to the underground
Drag me down in a deep black hole >>

So i'm here, frankly bored, reading Glamour magazine and browsing Style.it with the fourth espresso from this morning.
All i can think about?
Someone asked me today if i worship Satan. And wasn't kidding.
I could have started with a million jokes about the fact the devil wears Prada so i'm indeed a fan for obvious fashion reasons but i wisely just said "WHAT? OF COURSE NOT!" -.-

Really, why everything is so absurd lately?
What did i do wrong?

And do i look like a satanist?
Do my leopard printed tights look so bad, like if the devil itself made them? XD

Not sexy at all.

2009-11-06T03:09:40Z

A volte penso che intorno ci sia troppo silenzio.
Lascia spazio ai pensieri grigi, alla stanchezza, all'inquietudine.

Non riesco a dormire.
Can't sleep tonight.

Art of Revenge

2009-10-14T21:04:45Z

A revolution without dancing is a revolution not worth having.

So then, have some oonz.

-

This headache is exploding me. Dammit.

Also, i have a Gloomy Bear!
It's so cute, he sleeps with me everynight. Protecting me from bad dreams and loneliness.

ROMA ROMA ROMA

2009-10-07T00:43:25Z

I MOVED!!

Now i live in Rome!!
The house is cute, we have a kitten, the lady living with me is incrdibly sweet and she's giving me cooking lessons.

Tonight my moro walked in and found me all busy cooking for him and gave me ten thousand kisses all over.
In less than 3 months he made me a sweet wife all nice and stuff. Ahah. What a shame, i thought i was thougher than this, wtf =P

Being far from my family is not easy, and karma tried to smack me down few times.
I had to run to a doctor few days ago i'm now bearing incredible pain and i need to be sure no one notices. I have to get up in the morning, cook, clean, go out.. painkillers NOT working.

But i'm not alone, and i KNOW we can make this all work.
I'm not alone. And he's amazing.

Voodoo! Who-do-what-you-dont-dare-to-people!

2009-09-30T20:52:39Z

This is exactly how i feel.

Tomorrow i'll leave home.. and i'll start the crazy blind-folded running thing =P

My stuff is packed already, i'm bringing just clothes and make up basically.
I'm kinda nervous, but i'm sure everything will be all right in the end.

I'm not alone. I just need to keep this in mind.
I'm not alone.

Wish
Me
Luck
<3

Summer's over. . .

2009-09-20T15:07:28Z

Me + giant spider in MaestroBD's house! His collection of whips, canes and so can be seen in the background! Ahahah =D
Pic badly photoshopped by me - sorry if it suxxx

I've seen, met and been with so many wonderful friends this summer.
I don't think i am the Serena i was last June.

I changed so much and i really need to tank all the incredible people i had the chance to spend time with.
Everyone gave me something. I didn't always give something back, though.

I'm so sorry.
But also violently happy.

In about 10 days i'll go away from home. Scared as hell.
Wish me luck.

Brand . Whore

2009-09-13T21:07:58Z

I've been spending the most recent days locked into my home trying to shop online while trying to ignore my mom screaming.. and what did i learn from all of this?
That deep inside me, but not that deep as i imagined, lays a true brand whore.

This all started while i was in the incredibly gorgeous Navigator of the seas: shops were SO CHEAP.
Needless to say, i grabbed the nearest black leather Guess bag and refused to let it go.
All i could think was "less than 100$ for a bag that is usually more than 100€? you'll need to take this from my cold dead hands if you want it back, shopkeeper!" D:
My Moro just started laughing then told me i could have it. He's lovely like this =]
[I managed to spend another 100$ on Guess and Ralph Lauren jewelry the same day, duh >.< ]

MAC x Hello Kitty collab commercial.

This is not "hot news".
I bet 80% of my friends list already knows about this.. still i don't think i ever posted this on my blog.

I just realized today i want to own something deliciously kitch to keep in my new exxxpensive brand bag so that people will think i'm stylish and rich and cool and stuff when i'll retouch my makeup with an Hello Kitty lipstick, behind my heart shaped sunglasses.

The packaging of this products is worth the crazy amount of dollars i've seen some of them go on Ebay in my opinion:

What did i settle my mind for?

Mascara x Eye Liner combo
"Most popular" lipstick
"On the prowl" grey nail laquer

Being stupid as me is expensive. Dammit.

Leaving.. again =D

2009-08-01T13:29:32Z

What we usually do in Pescara when we're bored: grab BIG bottles full of happyness [that one was vodka+lemon soda] and go to the beach at night =D

A perfect "i'm having fun, don't worry about me" pic!

And since having no job basically means endless vacations, i'm leaving again.. i'll be spending time with my granny in a very small town and with my lovely friends after that =]
I won't have connection for a while, i'll try to find one when i'll be back to civilization [Roma] or sooner.
I even have a fetish/bondage photoshoot planned so i'll be back with lots of pics, as usual! =D

So ok, if anything fails, you'll hear from me in about 18 days!
Byeeeee ^^

Have fun everyone! Enjoy the summer =D

Ciao Milly.

2009-07-20T13:22:30Z

My baby has been put to sleep this morning.

She's been the dispotical ruler of all the chairs, beds and sofas of my house for 6 years, she was like a sister to me. My house feels so empty now..

I miss her already.

A Lover in my bed - A gun to my head

2009-07-18T14:26:29Z

You'll always be my Whore
Cause you're the One the i Adore.

I'm pretty damn dead. I have marks all over my body.. bites and burns on my shoulders, the biggest black bruise i've ever had on a leg, one of my ankles aches incredibly too much and so does one of my wrists.. plus some random little marks and spots. WTF? I can't remember being beat up. Blah

Still i'm back home.
And happy.
I'll leave again in some days..

Someone to see Nine Inch Nails with me this week?

Smashing Pumpkins and NIN are two of my fave bands of all the times, i'm so happy lately since i've been listening to them over and over and over again.
I'm nostalgic for the past, but my life is going pretty fast.
That wasn't meant to rhyme D:

Je suis un petit demon

2009-07-11T01:09:10Z

can't remember where i was while shooting this
or when it was
or what i was thinking about
but i like it =]

I'm leaving for Rome in about 9 hours. I'll be back friday!
Bye!

I have the most amazing friends

2009-07-08T14:52:48Z

3 july at Ritual "fetish cruise" night.

Me and Robotica ^^

BONUS:

video taken by my sister Shyghar.

Robotica's secret for a healthy CYBER life: PINK MILK!!
He's amazing =D

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2009-07-07T18:09:41Z

I played a bit with my lj layout.
Mh.
I kind of like it.
Well, this yellow-ish color is pretty annoying actually. I'll fix it sometimes.

Someone knows what's the code to force images to get smaller when outside a cut?
I thought i had it somewhere, i think i lost it between all my html notes =/
What if i "p-align center" everything? Will that fix the way my tables look?

SUMMER STUFF

July 11 >> Alternative nation [ROME but i'll be stayin in Terni]
July 15 >> Motorhead concert [ROME]
July 22 >> Nine Inch Nails concert [ROME]

August 7 >> Torture garden [LONDON] -maybe

</3 << emo heart

2009-07-01T19:10:16Z

i miss him so much.

i know i posted this pics like 3 times already, i repeat myself..
but everytime i look at this i start crying.

what hurts me more is that we still love eachother. he'll always be the only one in the world for me.
i'd die for him.
we're just not made to be together.

who knows what will happen next.

a friend from my warcraft guild said someone thinks i have 2 boyfriends and a girlfriend too!
wow! i wish my life was so full of people, i wouldn't feel so lost right now.

[someone probably read my lj and thought i fuck around which is NOT true. they're just friends, wtf?? people amaze me sometimes, i had a great laugh ^^]

Ma parliamo di cose serie: SHOES.

2009-06-29T16:10:50Z

So i'm now single and i've been lately watching too much Sex and the City.

There are some new shoes around Ebay, let's give them a look:

This line is appropriately called BORDELLO.
I couldn't think of a better name.

Just WOW.
I really think every woman in the world should own a pair. Or two. Or three.

I'm in love! =D

The day the whole world went away.

2009-06-27T02:03:13Z

I'm now both unemployed and single.
Anything i worked so hard to create collapsed.

Schizophrenic

2009-06-24T15:33:27Z

L'esatto momento in cui mi sono resa conto di essere totalmente fottuta:
eravamo G. M. ed io vicini vicini, abbracciati, sul letto.
I Rotterdam Terror Corps che suonavano fortissimo nell'aria e loro due - i miei cuccioli - che si sono piano piano addormentati su di me. Nel caldo asfissiante di Roma, nel casino di un letto sfatto, nel rumore assordante dei Rotterdam TC.

Erano due giorni che non mangiavo e non dormivo. Mi faceva male tutto.

Pur di guardarli e poterli accarezzare nel sonno, non mi sono addormentata con loro.

Ci si può "innamorare" così di due amici?
Non lo credevo possibile.

I know this music sucks. I like to have some nosense OONZ OONZ OONZ in my brain sometimes, helps me relax.

FIRED.

2009-06-18T15:05:34Z

I'm officially unemployed.

I guess i'll have a lot of free time this summer..
Concerts, parties, sex drogen und industrial.. HERE I COME!

[I'm trying to look at the bright side]

In my head

2009-06-12T15:56:08Z

I watch as he opens the door for her, and as she passes through it, put his hand in the small of her back. His hand, I notice, looks powerful and protective. And it’s then that I realize that not only do I have to get her to notice me, with my hands that are too delicate to be powerful and too small to be protective, but I have to get her to notice me among all the men she already knows she could love.

I think about kissing girls. I think about kissing her. I should be thinking about something else.

I think about kissing her.
[by Katie West]

. . .

I could have written this myself.
The picture is EXACTLY the one i have in my mind.
She was there, with me. Almost naked, perfect. Beautiful.
A clean, simple, genuine kind of beautiful.

"can i try this on?"
And she wears one of my fetish collars..
Black and shiny, on her gorgeous skin.

A miracle.
I fell in love.

TG 2009 - the best weekend of my life

2009-06-04T03:21:41Z

in the center Silvia, girl of my life..

my fucking sister, we rock

lovely Nomakk.. end of the night, we were incredibly tired

Paolo, another one of the guys i've fallen completely in love this weekend.

I can't stress enough about how incredible this weekend has been for me...
I've been lucky enough to hang out with the most amazing guys and girls ever.

To sum it up:

30 - 05: opening party @ Alien
Silvia danced with me the best "what you're waiting for" of my life.
And Prodigy won't ever sound the same without Paolo dancing on the tall cube with me =]

31 - 05: BDSM night @ Neo club
Intimate, sexy and incredibly kinky. No stompy music, lots of hot wax.
First time i tried a 4 people group kiss, i definitely enojed it ^_-

01 - 06: Full Scale TortureGarden night @ QVBE
The day the whole world went away <3

Grazie di cuore.
Grazie al fidato Nya per l'accampamento e il sushi, a Charliss e Zuul che si son fidati tanto di noi da farsi distruggere senza repliche, a Marco per l'antipatia e il kilt, al Nomakk per essere la zuccherino dolce che è, a Silvia perchè ho un'immagine nella mente che non se ne andrà mai, a Paolo Irbold perchè è sempre notevolissimo, al Paoletto danzante maestro di stile e coolness on the dancefloor, a Joseph per la sua immensa dolcezza e le caramelline, alla perversa Vale sempre pronta all'insulto e alla bestemmia, alla mia sorellona totalmente fuori di testa e tette Betty, a quel tipo mezzo nudo che è sempre un gran bello spettacolo, a Robotica e la sua frusta, a tutto lo staff Ritual e Torture garden per aver tirato su tutta questa baraonda, alla vodka, al latex, ai tacchi altissimi, ai vestiti corti, a ROMA CAPUT MUNDI sempre e comunque!

More pics [maybe] to come!
Full gallery on Facebook =]

Roma - Torture garden 2009.. with Lucifire!!

2009-05-30T12:40:07Z

I'll be attending TORTURE GARDEN tonight, tomorrow and [if i'll still be alive] the day after that.

1. Alien Club [PVC Lip Service and Honour] 2. Neo Club [Lolita Alice and the Pirates, MoiMemeMoitiè and Metamorphose] 2. QVBE [latex Ego Assassin]

If you see me please, stop me and tell me who you are. I want to drink too much, a lot of too much, incredible amounts of lots of too much.. so i won't prolly recognize anyone. Don't take it personally if i don't say hi ^^

Apart from that, how many first times you can have with something? It's strange..
I keep thinking about something and every time i do it i notice something else. Someone else. Little hints. Words not spoken.
I'm feeling used again. And i love it, i shouldn't.

May hates me.

2009-05-18T00:51:19Z

Last year, these days, i had incredible ups and downs.
That pic in fact is almost exactly 1 year old.

Guess what, that did not change.
I'm starting to believe that is the month of May that hates me. It speaks of summer and high heels, provocative see trough clothes, extreme experiences. New boys, new toys.

This time, if i'll decide to take pics of myself completely drunk and naked [i clearly remember taking off all my sweaty latex clothes and feeling strangely pleased by myself - it never happens] i'll post them straight away instead of burying them in my "Day Sleeper" folder.

Considering my mood... stay tuned.

mh.

2009-04-25T11:26:39Z

i got asleep in a church yesterday.

things have been strange lately D:

Few pics..

2009-04-18T12:04:49Z

I have a lot of pictures i should have posted ages ago...

I'm linking them from facebook, i hope it will work ^^

Some of my latest shot with Walter ^^

He's amazing ^^

Then a couple from the Combichrist + XP8 concert!

The amazing group and our Combi-Car =D

Stupid pic.. we were about to enter the venue at Siddharta! Very excited! =D

My amazing sister =]

Last but not least, me and Arael ^^
Pic shot in December ^^

If anyone's interested on Facebook i am SERENA PERFETTO =]
Add me ^^

Earthquake!!

2009-04-06T12:46:05Z

Stiamo tutti bene =]

A Pescara s'è sentita solo la scossa,
mia sorella, il suo ragazzo e gli amici che erano a L'Aquila sono riusciti a uscire velocemente dalle case e pare stiano tutti bene.
Grazie a chi s'è preoccupato, per fortuna non ce n'è bisogno =]

Un pensiero a chi non è stato tanto fortunato..